Fuck, off.
The Land Of Tears♥
one step closer




2011/05/31 ,
21:54
你没有回头...


就让沉默支撑我的洒脱,

我说服自己放手!


,
16:14
I was not prepared at all for you and I was not aware..


I hate being here without you
see you linger everywhere
and i doubt you know how much I`ve come to care about you..
baby, about you
i was not prepared at all for you
and i was not aware
that taking the fall could mean us standing still in there

cause baby without you
I am never what I am
never who I am
when i`m not with you

i think about you everyday
hear your voices on replay
boy you got, got me good
you should know i got it bad
i can still picture your face
even though you`re far away
not together but i remember
how it feels in your embrace
i`m not ashamed to say
you got me good, i got it bad

i can`t understand the reason
and i know it makes no sense
cause it`s so easy when i get to hold your hand

but baby when i can`t
i am never who i am without you

never knew i could feel like this
you took my heart and made me miss you so bad
i never felt anything so strong
when you`re not here everything is wrong

boy you got me good
i got it bad

i think about you everyday
hear your voices on replay
boy you got, you got me good
you should know i got it bad
i can still picture your face
even though you`re far away
not together but i remember
how it feels in your embrace
i`m not ashamed to say
you got me good, i got it bad

oooh baby, i`m not ashamed to say
you got me good, i got it bad


-Got It Bad by Wynter Gordon
A song for you, only you.


,
15:59
所以,请不要拆穿我伪装的自我... :)

说过了从今以后,我们还会是好朋友.


,
15:56
Exhausted.


All i really needed was a little space to breathe.


,
15:34
Back to the place where I belong.


Putting my heart back together.


,
01:33
我知道,



2011/05/30 ,
18:25
伤害,注定在遇见之后...


你们以为这样,就不会造成伤害吗?
越陷越深,越无法自拔,我知道;
但,来不及了...

你的不理不睬,刻意回避,
会造成的伤害,你想过吗?

我要的,只是朋友,就只是朋友般的相处;
是我要的太多吗?
就当我是朋友,难吗?

你们真的以为这样做我会比较好过吗?
你们真的以为不理不睬会让我比较容易放弃吗?
如果真的那么简单,
我就不会那么痛苦...

我也希望我爱上的,不是你;
我也希望我在乎的,不是你;
我也希望我可以潇洒的说放就放;
我也希望我可以随便接受追求我的人;
我也希望我不要那么执着...

遇见你,注定让我爱上你;
如果让我再选择一次,
我依然希望是你!


,
01:45
累了,坚持着没结果的结果...


亲爱的,我累了...
我知道你不在乎,
我知道是我一厢情愿,
我知道你不爱我,
我知道我不够好,
我知道你不会属于我,
我知道,我知道,我知道...

知道吗,最糟糕的感觉,
莫过于不知道应该等待还是放弃!

等待,需要勇气;
放弃,谈何容易

酒精,麻痹的了神智,麻痹不了心痛;
放荡,暂时性的失意,与烦恼隔绝的方法!

我知道我不该,但...
亲爱的,我真的不知道该怎么做了,
我真的累了...


2011/05/29 ,
11:28
Higher you hope, harder you drop.



,
11:18
Get in line.


I should have known better,
I should have walked away,
but I didn't;

It's my fault that I'm broken.


,
03:09
W.I.S.H


I wish I can be with you when you're down,
I wish I can be with you when you're sad,
I wish I can be with you when you're in anger,
I wish I have mighty power to chase your trouble away,
I wish I can solve problems you met,
I wish I can be the one you're willing to share with,
I wish it happens...

I wish, I wish it's just not fairy tale.


,
02:44
Intruder.


Baby, please be fine soon.

I'm worried... :(


,
01:19
面对,回忆...


好久好久没听的歌,
深深埋藏不敢触碰的伤,
歌曲响起,
回忆一幕幕划过,
如今的我,
以能微笑着坦然面对了吧?

是记忆作祟,
是毫无心理准备的关系,
不是还在乎...


2011/05/28 ,
14:00
I love you



,
10:10
Secret garden.


Her secret garden,

her everything;

The Land Of Tears.


2011/05/27 ,
19:43
难过了,可以假装快乐 :)


难过了不用让别人知道,因为不会有人在乎!


,
18:21
如果我能够不爱你,那该多好?


你不知道我在想你,是因为你不爱我;

我明明知道你不想我,却还爱你!


,
02:33
You're happiness mean everything.


Grant me a wish,
I want you to be happy.

No matter who you're with,
no matter who you love,
I only want you to be happy, forever...


,
01:52
很多时候,我不是真的要坚强!


可是谁又知道如果我不自立不自强不坚强,
谁又能在我需要肩膀的时候给我温暖?


,
01:19
26th of May. :)

The date, the gang, the loves.
They could never be replace. <3


2011/05/25 ,
22:27
F.R.I.E.N.D.S?


We're friends. Almost half of my world rotate around them, and I couldn't imagine if they leave. It's only about a month time, but I really need them & I rely on them. I believe in constellation, it's somehow accurate. I cherish every single human that walked in or thru my life. They might come and go, but they are all part of me. Memories that I wouldn't left behind. I believe, everyone that came into my life, they taught me lesson. They may be good or bad, it's life.

A lot happened on us, worst of all, I really don't know could I even handle it anymore! I'm in a mess, everything is creeping up my nerves, yet I've no idea on solving em'. How I wish they could understand how I feel... I'm not being emotion nor being hyperbole on this matter, I just care.

When the word love comes into friendship, everything ruin. It's not me nor them, it's the feeling inside, I believe? I just hate us being estrange, the sense of distance of me and them. I don't want this happen on us, anyone of us! I wish we're friends forever.

Yes, I fell for one of them, but the sense of hopeless, I'll stop myself from crossing the line. Cause I knew, once I cross the line, everything will be different. Maybe it's just me, I hope, I pray, they'll do the same. Drawing friendship line and relationship line clearly. loves <3


,
19:26
You were always hard to hold.


Letting go ain't easy.


,
18:57
我累了...


亲爱的,如果有一天我突然不烦你了,
请你主动找我,好吗?

我不是闹变扭,
我不是故意试探,
我不是任性,
我不是不在乎了,
我只是真的累了...

一次,那怕是一次,就足够了...
因为那会给我一辈子的勇气继续等你!


,
01:53
nobody makes me feel the way he did


... and nobody comes close to him.


,
01:52
He may not be perfect


but he is perfect to me.


,
01:38
I knew I shouldn't...


but please, let me walk into the fairy tale once.

Even if it's just a dream.


2011/05/24 ,
23:41
It's because of you.


It's not that I don't wanna give it a try.


,
10:10
就这样吧!


我想一个人走路,不是任性,也和冒险无关;
而是我想重新面对一个人的状态!

这是我需要的一个自我修复的过程...
我相信我自己可以面对各种人和事,
我要重新找回自己的力量,
不再虚弱,不再无助!

任何人都帮不了我;
只能独自去面对;

我只想一个人静静的,安静的前进...


,
04:26
恶梦...


胃病,失眠,好久都没找上门了...
那件事过后,我以为,恶梦不会重演!

胃病,越来越严重了,
呕吐次数,越来越多;
睡眠时间,一天比一天短,
醒来的时间,一天比一天长...

祝福我,快死了... =.=
转牛角尖,又来了!
最近,超情绪化的自己...

给我一点时间,会没事的! :)


,
04:19
爱的习惯...


爱上他,所以同样爱上了他喜欢的歌手,他喜欢的色调;


,
04:16
less that three.


Everything may not be perfect,
but at least we tried.


,
04:00
You are the life to my soul.


And how can I stand here without you?


2011/05/23 ,
18:28
We're friends, that's it.


& I wish we're more than that.


2011/05/22 ,
22:58
没有对与错,只有值与不值!


你是裹着美丽糖衣的毒药;

越陷越深,无可自拔了!


,
21:34
Sorry, I fell for you...


I only say it cause I mean it;

I only mean it cause it's true!


,
12:04
爱情才是最大赢家.



一段已经失去了的爱情,需要的不是伤心,而是时间;
一颗被深深伤了的心,需要的不是同情,而是新的爱情!


,
02:14
I heart you.


Tell me, if you don't feel the same.


,
02:06
Thankyou.

Thank you for everything that I'm being taught.



,
01:56
对不起...


我的无奈,对不起;
我的幼稚,对不起;
我的绝情,对不起;
我的不知所措,对不起;
我的心情不佳,对不起;
我的自以为是,对不起;

我们只会是朋友,真的...
你值得更好的,真的...
我不喜欢你,真的...

大家,对不起!


2011/05/21 ,
22:15
Happy Birthday to you.


第一次,毫无原因的,开心不起来!


,
16:05
And I hate how much I like you.



2011/05/20 ,
23:47
How I wish you feel the same too.



I like you,

I love you,

Yes, I do!


2011/05/19 ,
20:56
爱上的,是寂寞的等待...



我承认我爱上你了,

但自己知道,我们,不会有结果!


,
20:41
I'm not complete without you.


You are a part of someone’s life.
You may never know where you fit,
but always remember that someone’s life may not be complete without you!


,
20:37
爱情=盲目


我就要你,
我偏要你,
挡不住爱,
管不着爱,
流了眼泪受了伤,
舔舔伤口继续爱。


,
20:34
男人,你知道吗?



当女人卸妝,面對一個愛的人,是需要有很大的勇氣?
当女人被男人,脫去自己的衣服,一絲不掛的在他面前,是需要多少的愛?
当你抱著她,說一句愛你,是多麼讓她感動的一件事情!

当女人付出了一切,男人因為得到而不再去用心時,女人的心會撕裂成碎片...
当你離開她后,她每次按你的號碼時,是有著極大的期待與恐懼的,
你可知道?

女人的愛,男人的愛最大的不同在於:
男人忘不了初戀,
但是..女人把每一次的愛情當作是初戀,也是這輩子最後一個來愛!

女人知道太多不該知道的事情;
男人不知道太多該知道的事情...


2011/05/17 ,
16:19
又或者你不是不知道,只是假装不知道!


你不知道,没有回应的等待,

真的让人很累...


,
16:14
一句话给心烦时的自己!



愛情,要兩情相悅;

你愛他,他不愛你,
這段關係就沒意思

肯放手,
就是愛自己...


,
10:29
或许,是我不够好...



部落格荒废了好久,那代表自己快快乐乐的生活了好一段日子了吧?
每每到低潮,心里压抑的不能抒发,才会打开部落格,尽情的把自己的不快倾吐!

他走出了低潮,而我,还在原地踏步;
自己真的荒谬的可笑,
他...真的就不在乎你,
为什么还要拼死里贴上他的冷屁股?

身边朋友范围不断扩大,但知心的还是没几个!

我以为我不在乎的,
我以为我很洒脱的,
我以为我看得很开的,
但其实,根本不是的!

有没有人会懂,我其实有更多的不开心,但哪怕是这样,我还是习惯乐观地去安慰、劝解别人。
有没有人会懂,我其实真的不会安慰别人,只会傻呵呵地说,一切都会过去的,别想太多。
有没有人会懂,我其实一点也不大度,我很小气我很自私,你说者无心,我听者有心,会真的委屈会难过。
有没有人会懂,我其实很害怕自己拥有的东西被抢走,可是更讨厌那种竞争的感觉,弄到最后,莫名其妙地就变成别人的了,但是,我却连计较都没有立场。

友情与爱情,自己经历过,也看得太多...
每每以为自己可以洒脱的看待,
但夜深人静,孤单来袭,伪装的坚强也一片片瓦解!

或许是我不够好,真的不够好。
曾经,我很努力地照顾身边每一个人的情绪,我希望在我身边的人都会觉得我是温暖的,希望我可以给任何人都带来快乐。
可是我以为我是谁,我又以为我有多了不起,
我终于发现我根本没办法做到,所以只好选择自私了是不是。终于疲于应付别人的不满情绪,有的时候连个多余的表情都不想给。
因为我想明白了,何必在乎别人怎么看我,我要改变他们的想法得需要多大的精力呢?我疯了是不是?我太闲了是不是?
我确实蠢,蠢得无药可救。
有的时候连别人为什么不高兴都不清楚,只能安静地在一边,不想多问也不敢多问。
可是难道没人知道,我不是冷漠,我不是不关心,而是我真的不知道该怎么做才好,所以只好选择沉默。